Learning to let go of fear has been one of the hardest lessons of my lifetime. Fear of failure, fear of the unknown, fear of rejection, fear of pain. And for a long long time because of that I suffered from watching life pass by from inside. I created my own illusion of safety. And while it may have been safe, it was also uninspired and sad. It did not resemble life at all. It was a living death I endured. All for the sake of being fearful. Finally like a fireflies spark in the night I realized the simple truth that the pain that I felt from my perceived safety was all along making me more unhappy than what I would suffer even if I tried and failed at something.
For those who are fearless or raised to ignore the fear and do it anyway this logic seems simple. But for someone raise in fear, or abusive situations. Or those who are told as a child you are a failure, or deemed not good enough, this is a hard concept to take in. I am lucky I am learning to live while I am alive. Learning to grasp that fear and make it the rock I stand upon. Let it go.
Let it go…..