Before I started my journey with Arbonne I could never have imagined that it would bring me here, or what I would learn along the way. I’m shy, awkward and to be honest a lot of what they train us to do for our business is pretty uncomfortable to me. I never used to take selfies, mainly because I hated what I saw. My self esteem was rock bottom. But it was looking at my flaws then past my flaws that made me learn to love that person who I saw in those photo’s. I learned to nurture her. I wanted her fear to be gone. I wanted her to know her self worth.
It’s taken me a lot of years to find my sense of self worth and in some ways it’s still under development. One of the biggest things Arbonne has helped me learn had nothing to do with physical health, weight loss, or makeup and skincare. Becoming a consultant has helped me develop the tools and knowledge I’ve used to help myself and the men and women I work with and will work with in the future.
It started learning to love myself, to claim victories when I made them and give myself the credit I deserved. In the end, it came down to starting small. To giving myself short term goals and victories that I could use to build the strength I needed to focus on the long term and create something that would produce real change in my life.
And its working!
I made a goal and kept it for one day. Then I made two and kept them for a week. And yes there were stops and starts and pauses in my journey. But before I knew it, I was thinking about my life goals for a month from now. Then six months. Then a year! I was able to see the value in my own life, I was able to start loving that girl I saw in the photo’s.
I’ve been able to use these realizations to change my own life, and, when I saw the powerful changes that were happening inside of me, and the positive impact it had on every aspect of my life, I made it my mission to help others find the same. Now I want to help others find their small victories, big victories and help them through the stumbles and falls encountered along the way.
This is my wish for you ❤️
In creating this dreams and vision board I had to revisit last years that I created. This past year was a year that I got nothing done. Or did I? I learned a lot of lessons this past year. I learned that sometimes no matter how optimistic you are and how hard you try things may not turn out the way you envisioned them. But there was a lesson in there. Because in trying to adjust my sails and continue to push forward at what I wanted, when I wanted it I should have seen that some things are not meant to be “right now” or when we want them. Instead we often have to learn a lesson or two if we can move forward with any level of success.
I learned this past year that when things go wrong I blame everything and
everyone and yet sometimes the blame should be on myself and at other times
there is no blame game, it’s just life.
I had hoped to be a level 2 Reiki practitioner by this time. But after moving I had a hard time finding a new teacher that “fit”, that I fit with. I met 4 Reiki Masters this past year.
Teacher #1: I love her, love her vibe and her energy is very similar to my own. And I really wanted her to be my teacher. But she and where her Reiki shares are, is an hour away and in winter that’s more like and hour and a half. And that makes regular Reiki shares and continuing with her to become a Reiki Master, iffy.
Teacher #2: She’s close by, but I don’t feel she is the right teacher for me. I don’t mesh with her ways, and honestly I don’t think she feels me either. Enough said…
Teacher #3: She is also pretty close logistically and her energy is dynamic and she is like fire and white light combined, but something still was “off”.
Teacher #4: Also close but she felt almost too down to earth and I was rather dismissive about her. When she was giving me a Reiki treatment she looked at me and told me I had to get myself together because my family would need me to be the elder soon. It was a great Reiki session and all but she didn’t feel, I don’t know, otherworldly enough?
Well, time passed. And my sister passed away a few months later. And well with my parents gone and two older siblings gone, I was the “elder” of the family. But still I kind of just had a passing thought about what Reiki master #4 had said during my Reiki session and went about life still frustrated I didn’t have a Reiki teacher. It actually brought me to tears a couple times, the indecision and confusion over it.
Then I one day I realized a couple things..
That is an example of the lessons I’ve been learning this past year about expectations vs reality and learning that all that I need may not be just what I want. So as I reflected on last years vision board and all that didn’t become my reality. I know why they didn’t and I have the knowledge to make it all happen this year!
On to 2020! I’ve already felt the tides changing and I think that 2020 is going to be an amazing year. The first half, will have a few bumps in the road, but the second half is looking pretty sweet!
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I plan to continue to add onto this through January!