Healing – It’s A Process

So right before I started blogging again BOTH of our feline furkids came down sick. We’ve been going through about a month long treatment plan for both of them. A month in and I wanted to give an update on their progress and get you up to date on our “kids”,  Loki & Tinka Belle.

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Loki

When Loki first found us, we thought he was a she. And “her” name became Faith. On the first vet visit we found out she was a he and thus was named after the trickster Loki. Loki came to us as a stray and was a terrified little guy. He would not walk on the carpeting, he feared it. So he just jumped from piece of furniture to piece of furniture till he made it to wherever he was going. Window ledges were also challenging for him. He just never quite had the cunning feline personality most cats have. He was and still is unique 💙 He no longer has a fear of carpets and can now navigate window ledges but he can still be a bit jumpy. But he is loved so much and he loves back like crazy. This is our lap cat! He’s actually pouting in this photo because I was taking his photo instead of holding him. 

Loki was diagnosed with severe Irritable Bowel Disease last month. He is on high doses of Prednisone and is permanently on a special diet. He occasionally now gets probiotic mixed with his food. He is now doing fabulously thank you! We are nearing the stage where the vets will start reducing the amount of Prednisone he’s taking. But, his disease was so swift and severe he will likely be on medication for life, it’s just seeing what dosage he needs at this point. 

But he’s now a much happier (even if he looks kind of emo in this photo) and healthier these days! He’s about 11 or 12 years young 💙
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Tinka Belle (aka the diva of the house)

Tinka also came to us as a stray. Our neighbor brought both Loki and Tinka to us after finding them on the street. Tinka was found living under our neighbors graandma’s porch. The man that lived next door to grandma was planning to poison her. So instead, she came home to us. She was and can still be a handful. She came to us very feral. She hated humans, did not want to be touched, ever. 

It turned out Tinka had (has) Hyperthyroidism which made her very fearful and feral acting. Made her skittish and un-trusting. But sadly, she was diagnosed with it 10 years after she came to live with us. And during that diagnosis it was also discovered she early stage feline breast cancer.  Our little girl is a fighter though and she survived breast cancer surgery which also included some cancer reoccurring preventative mammary gland removal. She was put on a beta blocker and blood pressure medicine for her Hyperthyroidism and we now have to watch very closely for lumps. But her MRI looked clean. Now about 6 months later, she is off her beta blocker and soon her blood pressure meds will be reduced and perhaps eventually be completely taken off of 💙

Last month somehow she ended up with a hot spot on her belly that grew huge in days. We thought we had some serious food issues because she stopped eating or coming to me. But it turned out she had this large hot spot that she was tearing apart on her belly that was just growing and growing. It was a massive infection on her teet that spread to another teat. Now let me tell you after her surviving breast cancer and her and I going through all the healing from TWO huge incisions down her belly, her teets being infected was a terrifying diagnosis. And it still is because she is still in the healing process and we don’t really have a clue what the infection is or was. But anyway, she was given an antibiotic injection and Predisone to take at home for a vigorous round of treatment and healing. She has slowly been weaning off the Prednisone this week  and her recheck is actually today. Two days ago I thought another hot spot was forming but realized (and the hubby confirmed) it’s actually her HUGE scab starting to pull away from her skin leaving very irritated pink skin underneath that will likely scab up again just smaller. But no lie, her scab is thick and at least an inch long. You can kind of see it in the photo and if you scroll down I outlined the scabby part (it’s next to the black patch of hair on her belly). 

So we shall see where we are at her recheck this afternoon. I’m optimistic that whatever the infection was, was not related to the big C word at all 💙

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It’s a HUGE Hot Spot!

Shadow

Shadow

Do not fear your shadow.
It is there you hide your truth
From you.
Do not fear the darkness
It is there you find strength,
Courage to fight
The weight of its truth.

Do not fear sharing this weight.
Connection, like thread,
Sews up your wounds
That cut to the marrow
To be seen
In this truth
Heals not only you

Hold space for your own
Wounded heart
Lift it up to the heavens and wail
That they gave such a heart
As this
That feels so deep
Into inky depths
It threatens
To pull you down
Down
And further still
Into your pain

 

Do not fear your pain
Welcome it home
(Rejecting it fragments your truth)
And feel

Your heart has this strength
For though it was made but tiny flesh
Its fibers weave tapestry
Over scars
A shimmering armor
Not calloused
But shining ready
With light to balance this dark

 

We are not singular beings.
We dance between
light and dark both
When in the depths of despair
It is this shining, armored heart that
Leads us back to peace
Darkness is the terrain
Love is the compass
Light is the wayshower
To the truth of you

 

Oh, that you
knew the strength
Of your own
Heart.
Do not fear your shadow
Show it what it is to dance
With a being of light—
That being is you.

~Author: Angel Marie Russell

 

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