Can you see in the middle photo, that sweat dripping off my nose💦? I usually don’t sweat “inside the apartment” because we keep the ❄ air conditioner ❄ cranked pretty cold during the hot months (set at 70). But that middle photo is post-Pure Cardio 2 🔥🔥🔥from #shaunweek on #BOD. The other two are from my run training this morning. I worked up more of a sweat INSIDE doing my #BOD workout than I did for two miles in the heat outside‼️
Workouts completed for the day 😄
I woke up super sore 😧 this morning from doubling up on my workouts yesterday. I didn’t want to move, reallllly didn’t want to workout at all. But I knew if I laced up and got my booty out the door I’d be glad I did. So instead of caving in and blowing off my workouts, I killed both of them💥💥!
Spent the rest of the day getting some serious cleaning done and spending time with my honey 💕✨ Now I’m working on cleaning up files and folders + updates on the computer AND getting caught up on mail 😄 Tomorrow I’ll be able to spend some time brainstorming some business ideas💡 So far even though I began the week behind in everything I wanted to get done, I’m getting super organized and accomplishing some goals. All in all, I survived Monday and I’m having a productive Tuesday!
Beautiful but busy day! Headed down to the boardwalk for a quick run with the hubby in between the other plans and responsibilities we had to take care of today 💙 It gets so busy down at the boardwalk during tourist season, which is nearly here. So we decided to get in a beach run. It was already bustling with early vacationers and spring breakers. I admit I love the energy vibe down here during tourist season, but my other half, not so much lol.
A quick tip for anyone wanting to head to Virginia Beach for a vacation? The months of March, April, and October are usually less crowded and the hotels are at lower rates. But be warned, March & April the ocean may still be a bit chilly. October though you still have warm waters! Just no sign of lifeguards. Today though people were in the water! Swimmers, surfers and kids playing around. It was kinda awesome!
The hubby did his thing and I did mine. We run at different paces and I do the whole run/walk/run so we went separate ways once we were there. But it was absolutely beautiful! Temps hit the 80’s, sunny with a nice cool breeze, perfect run weather!
My legs are starting to gain strength and I’m pretty happy with the day. I’m not even worried about running right now. It’s all about building endurance and strengthening my legs. And of course conditioning these lungs of mine. Four packs of cigarettes a day does some serious damage. Quit NOW, if you smoke. That damage just increases as time goes by. So happy I quit and never going back.
Days like today make me so thankful I quit smoking. Breathing the fresh air, smoke free is profoundly different. And smelling the ocean breeze, yeah that’s good stuff!
On the starting line nonetheless. Maybe you’re facing your first 5k. Maybe it’s a ten. Maybe a half, or a marathon, or an ultra. Maybe you’re even running Boston.
Waiting on that starting line, you’re beginning to feel it. The anticipation, the doubt, the excitement, the energy. The definitiveness of what’s behind. The uncertainty of what’s ahead.
It hasn’t been easy. There have been workouts that tanked. Weeks with missed mileage. Tired legs. Hard sessions. The daily dance of life vs. the plan.
But there have been great moments too. The decision to race. The dedication to train. Miles where you felt like you could run forever. Even the bravery of this morning, where you put on your singlet, fought the crowds, and met your fate at the starting line.
And now it’s here. It is time. No more countdowns. No more workouts to nail. No more wondering, “Am I fit enough? Strong enough? Prepared for what’s ahead?”
This is what you have been waiting for. No doubt you are nervous, but know that you are ready. You earned this opportunity. And you were born to fly.
So, take a deep breath, look around you, and soak it all in. Relish where you are. Realize how far you’ve come.
So yesterday, I decided to journey out for a bit even though my knee is still hurting and mobility is still limited. I wrapped my knee pretty well and enjoyed getting out for a short walk, a very short walk. And yep, I suffered a bit for it but wrapping, icing and elevating is doing the trick. I’m pretty sure by tomorrow I will at least be able to get some yoga in to stretch the muscle and relieve some of the pressure.
Trying not to get too down about the setback. Today it rained/snowed/slushed a bit outside and I knew all weekend friends were running Shamrock (8k, Half Marathon, and Marathon), and I was stuck sitting staring outside at the bleakness of the day and re-wrapping my knee.
Shamrock was to be my first Half Marathon, one because of lack of training I wasn’t prepared for physically or mentally. But was still bittersweet that I was ill-prepared and then sidelined due to injury. But life is about lessons and introspection and all this has shown me how important doing training is and how important strength training is to aid in preventing injury. And has given my a HUGE reminder that I don’t have to push myself to failure.
You see a while back I realized I lack self compassion. Oh I have had a ton of dislike for myself from time to time. But I never gave myself a break. I don’t mean rest break. I mean I not giving myself permission to fail. So when I inevitably did (we all do) I didn’t handle it well. I would get angry with myself for not being good enough, not being as good as _____ fill anyone or anything in the blank.
I was doing this to myself.
I tended to look at the end of things instead of the present. I looked far into the future and would prepare myself for the possibility of failure, the inevitable defeat of ones self. Thinking if I prepare myself for the failure I won’t be as hurt, or disappointed, or as crushed. But seriously all this was doing was defeating myself before even starting.
When I was training for the Shamrock Half all I saw was the end game. And all the self doubt hung on my shoulder every day. So when I went out to train I carried that self doubt along the way. I may as well have given up the day I started. I didn’t give myself permission to fail, or even to just enjoy the journey. Instead I presumed I wouldn’t make it and I would be swept off the course.
But you know what I learned? Who cares if I would have been swept off the course? Who cares if I was dead last? That isn’t the point. It never was or should have been the point. I have learned a lot this past year about myself and life. The end of the story doesn’t matter if you aren’t enjoying the beginning or middle of it. Because even getting swept off a course means you put in your training and you showed up for yourself. Look at all that IS achieved, all the training and all the miles. And maybe, just maybe next year you won’t get swept, you’ll make it a little further, just maybe.
So to myself a reminder, and to all of you reading who may need to hear this….
GIVE YOURSELF SPACE
Space to face the fear of failure, confront it and move forward without it. Take control and put that fear in it’s place. Space to freely choose the direction you want to head in. Is it something you really want? If it is, go at it as if you already won. If you put the effort in, you already are a winner.
GIVE YOURSELF COMPASSION
Consider this. If your friend were afraid of doing something, something they reallllly wanted to do, but was afraid they would fail. Would you tell them, “go ahead, quit”? No, no you wouldn’t. So remember to treat yourself as you would your best friend, your parent, or your spouse. Love yourself as you love them. Give yourself the same pep talk you would give them. The same cheer squad so to speak as you would be for them.
ENJOY THE JOURNEY
Don’t focus on the end game. Enjoy the process. Because if you aren’t enjoying it, why are you even out there doing it? Enjoy every aspect of it. Go where you feel inspired. Go at things in YOUR pace, not anyone else’s. Dress yourself the part and stand tall because you are putting yourself out there to improve yourself. And that alone is the best win of all.
TACKLE IT WITH INNOCENCE
Be the child. Children fear life much less that adults do. They don’t have that fear of failure (unless instilled by those around them). So instead of going out and thinking “I can ONLY do 2 miles”, lace up your shoes, walk out the door and think “I wonder how many miles I can do today”. Yes, there are specific training plans you should consider when you are training for longer races. But if you’re just starting out. Don’t limit yourself by your own imagination. Like a child with innocence in tact, let your imagination be limitless. And this we should do with life in general. Not just running.
SET MINI GOALS
Don’t set massive earth shattering goals. Set attainable goals that step just a wee bit outside your present ability.
And most of all….
BE YOUR AUTHENTIC SELF
People can spend years worrying what others will say, or what they’ll think of something. But they aren’t living your life. They don’t wake up with your dreams or your ambitions to focus on. They have their own lives to live.
Something my adorable and wise husband tells me all the time is to not worry what others are thinking because they are usually to worried what someone else is thinking about them and won’t see whatever flaw I am seeing that in my eyes is so HUGE. That by the way, is never HUGE. We all have flaws. We all have things we may not be as good at doing as others. But at the end of the day those unique qualities we all possess of failure and accomplishment balance out with humanity as a whole. That’s why friends are able to help friends and co-workers can help the guy in the next cubicle. So stop being so hard on yourself. We all a gift to the humanity no matter how small or insignificant we feel that gift may be, to others it may be everything. You never know who you may be inspiring, or who’s life you may be helping to change. So be yourself, life isn’t a competition with anyone 💛
So once again I’ll be training but this time I will train in the present and not looking ahead too far. I’m thinking my next planned first time half marathon will be in about a year. But even that, I’m not stressing about. I made myself hate the process and now it’s about falling in love all over again. I have 5k’s, 8k’s and a couple 10 milers I plan to do this year but none with anticipated goals. It’s about the journey and so far, even with a big bad boo boo, I’m loving the journey!
Up off my buns finally. Been in a physical rut/dead stop for quite some time. Struggles are real, depression and loss are real and not always is it easy to bounce back. I tend to shut myself off and hide from the world till I am stronger again. I think it’s because I never want anyone to see or know when I am hit hard and feeling weak and vulnerable. Shutting myself down has always been my go to fix. But it doesn’t work, it only makes things worse.
So I have a new attitude, new goals, and a new fitness schedule. It’s easy and flexible and will allow me to ease myself back into it all while still pushing my limits but giving me room to change things up. In the past I’ve tried to adhere to rigid schedules (that I made for myself) and ultimately I burned out fast. I pushed to hard in some aspects and not hard enough in others. But now I feel my head’s back in the game and hubby and I are working to be a support system instead of being negative enablers. You know how that story goes. I’d say how about stopping for a doughnut and while yeah one doughnut is fine, once in a while, us leaving with four doughnuts and neither trying to talk the other back to just one, or better yet none in NOT fine.
We’ve sadly loved each other so much we’ve allowed each other to be lazy and excuse away and let back in bad eating habits. Now we’ve acknowledged the problem and are facing it head on. We’ve turned the page and now love each other enough to say no, to give that push when needed and to be the reminder that we can do better and strive for more. We’ve moved and LOVE the place and with that have good vibes and positive energy flowing again (photo’s to come)!
So yeah, back to my schedule….
I’m getting back to the basics and starting all over again. This will help me focus and small improvements and specific goals.
Monday – Yoga
Tuesday – Run/Walk/Run
Wednesday – Cross Train/Weights
Thursday – Run/Walk/Run
Friday – Yoga
Saturday – Long Run/Walk/Run
Sunday – Rest/Stretch
When we moved we moved near two amazing things, a park and a yoga/meditation/reiki studio! We also live near a gym and the YMCA (looking into memberships). And I also have a couple at home video’s I love. Bob Harper has a great series of video’s that are complete cardio conditioning, these are my go to when I am at home and need a good strength workout. He also has one of my all time favorite Yoga dvd’s. But I also follow a few yogi’s online and I’m going to check out Beachbody’s new release, 3 Week Yoga Retreat. Seane Corn, Travis Eliot, Shiva Rea and Rodney Yee are some of the online yoga teachers I follow. Another great source for yoga is Gaiam! I am hoping to incorporate some of the RWB‘s Death By Sled workouts @TheVault (it’s gonna hurt!). I’m dying to try kickboxing!
Toss in some hiking, hula hooping, swim training (yikes) and maybe some biking and climbing for a bit of flavor and I think I’ll be doing just fine. Oh and don’t forget RACES!! They are a huge motivator and so much fun!!
I am so thankful for my husband, friends, and family that stick by and remind me that even when life gives you those lemons, oranges and grapes are out there too. I’m thankful for my INKnBURN, RunJunkEes, RWB, and Hogwarts Running Club families out there who even when I’m not participating give me the motivation and inspiration I need to pick myself back up again. You have no idea how inspiring you really are 💙
So if you’re out there and life gave you some set backs and kicked your butt to the ground, just remember that when you fall, you can rise again. So start climbing back out of it and live. Live life loud and embrace ever single moment with your whole heart. It’s your one sweet life. Don’t let anyone’s judgement hold you back, even your own. I believe in you and I believe in me. We can do this 💜